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so is anyone else finding it's takes forever for LJ comment e-mails to show up?
firecat: slow loris (slow loris)
so is anyone else finding it's takes forever for LJ comment e-mails to show up?
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And now a post on one of the fun parts of aging...rediscovering stuff you used to like. (And still getting to discover new stuff!)

A while ago I came into possession of a bunch of iTunes song credits. Here's what I bought:Read more... )

What music have you (re)acquired lately?

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And now a post on one of the fun parts of aging...rediscovering stuff you used to like. (And still getting to discover new stuff!)

A while ago I came into possession of a bunch of iTunes song credits. Here's what I bought:Read more... )

What music have you (re)acquired lately?

firecat: too much coffee man looking discouraged (too much coffee man)
If you're maybe noticing that you're older than you used to be, and are feeling sad/angry/confused/worried/frustrated that you haven't accomplished as much as you/other people in your present or past/annoyingly critical voices inside your head think you should have, and if you're maybe feeling something like "I'm not a real grownup like everyone else," and if you're maybe also feeling sad/angry/confused/worried/frustrated that your body isn't working the way it used to, and you're maybe thinking, "if that's true then how am I going to DO all those accomplishments that I/other people/voices in my head think I ought or want to do?", and maybe you're also wondering how are you going to dig out from under the accumulation of habit and procrastination and self-doubt to some sense of satisfaction in your life again, then post this same sentence in your journal.

Friends keep saying stuff like that where I can see it, and I've been feeling it for a while now too. One said it really well in a friends-locked post:
It's been hard for the last some-odd months, with my age catching up to me, not to feel that I've been a continual failure in school, work, and my personal life. ...

I've been trying so hard to hide from my friends -- most of them not very close, even if they were before -- the fact that I'm not in their league in any sense of the word. ...

Come to think of it, I don't do yard work because I'm afraid of being looked at/judged by passersby. I don't do artwork because I'm afraid of ill-judgment and meaningless or worthless praise. This has gotten as bad as it ever was in the worst years of my adolescence. Worse, because I don't have the energy or the twenty years ahead of me to think I have plenty of time yet to pull myself out of it.
It was a revelation to read this, especially the part about "as bad as it ever was in the worst years of my adolescence," because that's exactly what bugs me about the similar feelings I have—"WTF? I thought I was DONE with these feelings of self-consciousness. No one told me they would come back, dammit! I thought 'mid-life crisis' just meant you went out and got your virtual red sports car and had done with it."

When a whole bunch of my friends and acquaintances are having similar uncomfortable feelings, and especially when each one is having these feelings privately and feeling shame about it because it seems like no one else has them, I ask myself whether there's some kind of cultural pressure going on, and I ask myself whether maybe we would do better examining these tendencies and pressures together, so we can figure out where we stand, and which of the beliefs and tendencies to embrace, and which to say pbtpbtpbtpbt!!!! to.

I wonder how that could be accomplished.

Do you have those feelings? Could you use a way to talk about those feelings with other folks who struggle with them?
firecat: too much coffee man looking discouraged (too much coffee man)
If you're maybe noticing that you're older than you used to be, and are feeling sad/angry/confused/worried/frustrated that you haven't accomplished as much as you/other people in your present or past/annoyingly critical voices inside your head think you should have, and if you're maybe feeling something like "I'm not a real grownup like everyone else," and if you're maybe also feeling sad/angry/confused/worried/frustrated that your body isn't working the way it used to, and you're maybe thinking, "if that's true then how am I going to DO all those accomplishments that I/other people/voices in my head think I ought or want to do?", and maybe you're also wondering how are you going to dig out from under the accumulation of habit and procrastination and self-doubt to some sense of satisfaction in your life again, then post this same sentence in your journal.

Friends keep saying stuff like that where I can see it, and I've been feeling it for a while now too. One said it really well in a friends-locked post:
It's been hard for the last some-odd months, with my age catching up to me, not to feel that I've been a continual failure in school, work, and my personal life. ...

I've been trying so hard to hide from my friends -- most of them not very close, even if they were before -- the fact that I'm not in their league in any sense of the word. ...

Come to think of it, I don't do yard work because I'm afraid of being looked at/judged by passersby. I don't do artwork because I'm afraid of ill-judgment and meaningless or worthless praise. This has gotten as bad as it ever was in the worst years of my adolescence. Worse, because I don't have the energy or the twenty years ahead of me to think I have plenty of time yet to pull myself out of it.
It was a revelation to read this, especially the part about "as bad as it ever was in the worst years of my adolescence," because that's exactly what bugs me about the similar feelings I have—"WTF? I thought I was DONE with these feelings of self-consciousness. No one told me they would come back, dammit! I thought 'mid-life crisis' just meant you went out and got your virtual red sports car and had done with it."

When a whole bunch of my friends and acquaintances are having similar uncomfortable feelings, and especially when each one is having these feelings privately and feeling shame about it because it seems like no one else has them, I ask myself whether there's some kind of cultural pressure going on, and I ask myself whether maybe we would do better examining these tendencies and pressures together, so we can figure out where we stand, and which of the beliefs and tendencies to embrace, and which to say pbtpbtpbtpbt!!!! to.

I wonder how that could be accomplished.

Do you have those feelings? Could you use a way to talk about those feelings with other folks who struggle with them?
firecat: cartoon cat eating something onna stick (snack cat soup)
The OH wrote elsewhere:
So Speakeasy just got bought out by Best Buy. Ewwww! I'm not changing
immediately, but I'd like some current recommendations for broadband
choices in the SF Bay Area. We prefer non-cable but are willing to
consider anything reliable at this point (we currently do not have a
cable hookup).
Press release here:
http://www.speakeasy.net/press/pr/pr032707.php
firecat: cartoon cat eating something onna stick (snack cat soup)
The OH wrote elsewhere:
So Speakeasy just got bought out by Best Buy. Ewwww! I'm not changing
immediately, but I'd like some current recommendations for broadband
choices in the SF Bay Area. We prefer non-cable but are willing to
consider anything reliable at this point (we currently do not have a
cable hookup).
Press release here:
http://www.speakeasy.net/press/pr/pr032707.php
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[livejournal.com profile] punkmom cleverly suggested that I ask my knitting friends if y'all have any of the books I was ranting about not being able to see online. Here is my current list and if you have opinions on any of these, or if you are local and have a copy that I could look at, please let me know:

Wrap Style: Innovative to Traditional, 24 Inspirational Shawls, Ponchos, and Capelets to Knit and Crochet by Pam Allen, Ann Budd

I like this wrap from it and either don't like or can't tell whether I like (Green Sleeves) the other wraps shown on the Interweave site (here and here). I like this but it's available for free. I want to know if there are any others I like, because I would rather not pay $22 for one pattern.

I find myself wanting to play around with cable and celtic knot stitches so I would also like to have a look at these:

Aran Sweater Design by Janet Szabo

I have these on hold at the library:

220 Aran stitches : includes diamonds, cables, twists, honeycombs, textures, panels, backgrounds

Aran knitting, Alice Starmore

Vogue knitting stitchionary 2. Vol. 2, cables : the ultimate stitch dictionary

Michael Pearson's Traditional knitting : Aran, Fair Isle, and fisher ganseys

Finally, if you have any opinions about the books in my Amazon yarncrafts wishlist I would welcome them. (ObDisclaimer: I am not trolling for gifts; this is just a convenient place to keep track of stuff I want to check out.)
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/2H16VWFC2C9PQ
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[livejournal.com profile] punkmom cleverly suggested that I ask my knitting friends if y'all have any of the books I was ranting about not being able to see online. Here is my current list and if you have opinions on any of these, or if you are local and have a copy that I could look at, please let me know:

Wrap Style: Innovative to Traditional, 24 Inspirational Shawls, Ponchos, and Capelets to Knit and Crochet by Pam Allen, Ann Budd

I like this wrap from it and either don't like or can't tell whether I like (Green Sleeves) the other wraps shown on the Interweave site (here and here). I like this but it's available for free. I want to know if there are any others I like, because I would rather not pay $22 for one pattern.

I find myself wanting to play around with cable and celtic knot stitches so I would also like to have a look at these:

Aran Sweater Design by Janet Szabo

I have these on hold at the library:

220 Aran stitches : includes diamonds, cables, twists, honeycombs, textures, panels, backgrounds

Aran knitting, Alice Starmore

Vogue knitting stitchionary 2. Vol. 2, cables : the ultimate stitch dictionary

Michael Pearson's Traditional knitting : Aran, Fair Isle, and fisher ganseys

Finally, if you have any opinions about the books in my Amazon yarncrafts wishlist I would welcome them. (ObDisclaimer: I am not trolling for gifts; this is just a convenient place to keep track of stuff I want to check out.)
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/2H16VWFC2C9PQ

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