I'm going to turn red from head to toe at this rate...

My buzz comes less from "guts" than from this "fuckit" attitude toward the whole daily fuss with your appearance thing.

I guess it takes guts to have such an attitude in this society.

What makes me lose confidence is not looking non-mainstream, but trying to look mainstream

The last time I tried to put on any makeup (for a reason other than a costume party)[B I burst into tears.
Let's just say that whenever I try to dress in a traditionally feminine manner I feel like I'm in drag.