"You can have what you want"

[firecat]

(noodling inspired by a post of loveandlight)



I've never had that much trouble having what I want. If I want something, I eventually figure out a way to achieve it or I figure out a way to stop wanting it. (I'm either lucky or clever in that I have a working reality filter on what I want, and I don't often spend a lot of time wanting things I definitely can't have.)

The trouble is in figuring out what I want in the first place.

I mean, I vaguely want all sorts of things, which change from hour to hour.

But I don't very often have a strong feeling of wanting something specific, a feeling that lasts long enough for me to make a meaningful commitment of resources to it.

And I usually don't feel good about "just picking something" out of the vague things that flit by and pursuing that for the sake of pursuing something.

Overall this is probably a good thing. But when I'm in one of those periods where I don't have a want I'm trying to achieve, I feel uncomfortably adrift.

There's a lot more to this...maybe I'll noodle about it some more later.

Comments

[bobbylevi.livejournal.com]

But when I'm in one of those periods where I don't have a want I'm trying to achieve, I feel uncomfortably adrift.

That's where I'm at right now, and I do feel uncomfortably adrift.... great expression, it perfectly describes the feeling so well. I'm trying to identify some realistic wants.... once I can do that, then I can start to anchor myself.

[treacle-well.livejournal.com]

Yes.

You are speaking my life.