Poem: "The Coracle in the Forest"
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temporize
22 Dec 2025 12:00 amMerriam-Webster's Word of the Day for December 22, 2025 is:
temporize \TEM-puh-ryze\ verb
To temporize is to avoid making a decision or giving a definite answer in order to have more time.
// Pressured by voters on both sides of the issue, the congressman temporized.
Examples:
"The question is, Did you eat the last piece of pie? And the politician who ate the last piece of pie doesn't want to say yes, because they might get in trouble. Doesn't want to say no, because that's an outright lie. So they waver, they equivocate, they temporize, they put things in context, and they talk like a politician." — David Frum, The Atlantic (The David Frum Show podcast), 21 May 2025
Did you know?
Temporize comes from the Middle French word temporiser, which in turn likely traces back via Medieval Latin temporizāre, "to delay," to the Latin noun tempus, meaning "time." Tempus is also the root of such words as tempo, contemporary, and temporal. If you need to buy some time, you might resort to temporizing, but you probably won't win admiration for doing so, as the word typically carries a negative connotation. For instance, a political leader faced with a difficult issue might temporize by talking vaguely about possible solutions without actually doing anything. The point of such temporizing is to avoid taking definitive—and possibly unpopular—action, in hopes that the problem will somehow go away.
The Multi History Box!
21 Dec 2025 10:58 pmNow that I have FoxitReader working on the new computer, I have regained the ability to print insta-zines out of any fancy academic articles I want! (Just as long as they're ~52 pages or less.) We have been sorting the periodicals at the sci-fi library, and we decided to snag an empty box because it was the perfect size for our bookshelf, and also many of those boxes are empty, dusty, sad, and unloved.
And then I had a great idea. @_@ What if it became our multi library box?
A bunch of the very old multi articles we have (and some of the new ones) are from magazines or 600+ page tomes with names like Transactions of the Royal Edinburgh Society, which include a gazillion articles by a gazillion people on all sorts of topics. (The Royal Edinburgh Society one not only has an early 1823 "dual personality" case, but articles on a plant fossil found in a quarry, milk of magnesia, and math.) Obviously, we aren't interested in, like, 580+ of those pages. But thanks to my trusty printer and FoxitReader, I can print out just the articles that matter to us, date them, annotate them, and put them in the periodicals box in chronological order for easy reference!
I now have seven historical articles printed:
- Papierfliegerfalter's translation of a 1791 German medical multi case: Gmelin, E. (1791). Materialen fur die anthropologie (pp. 3-89). Tubingen, Germany: Cotta. (The original German case is already online and screenreadable at GoogleBooks.)
- Maybe now that we have it on paper, we will FINALLY read this!
- Plumer, W. (1859). Mary Reynolds: A Case of Double Consciousness. Harper Magazine No. CXX, Vol. XX (May 1860).
- A case about the lady often credited as "the first multiple," even though there's no such thing. She switched between two folks for years, and settled into one permanently after a while.
- Dewar, H. (1822). Report on a Communication from Dr [sic] Dyce of Aberdeen, to the Royal Society of Edinburgh, "Oh Uterine Irritation, and its Effects on the Female Constitution." Transactions of the Royal Society of Edinburgh, vol. XI. Edinburgh: William & Charles Tait.
- Early "double personality" case involving a teenage girl who'd sleepwalk/sleeptalk/go into trance and whose "sleep" memory and "waking" memories were kept completely separate from each other. This paper was listed under the mistaken titles of "Double Personality," and "Report on a Communication from Dr. Dyce of Aberdeen" in Goettman and Greaves' gigantic 1991 multi bibilography.
- Carlson, N. (2011). Searching for Catherine Auger: The Forgotten Wife of the Wîhtikôw (Windigo). in Sarah Carter (Ed.) Recollecting: Lives of Aboriginal Women of the Canadian Northwest and Borderlands. Edmonton: AU Press.
- The story of the wife of Napanin/Felix Augur witiko, who in Alberta in 1897 "went witiko," became overwhelmingly compelled to devour his wife and children, and begged to be killed so he wouldn't do so. The local medicine man did so.
- Schmidt, L. E. (2010) Chapter Six: One Religio-Sexual Maniac. Heaven's Bride: the Unprintable Life of Ida C. Craddock, American Mystic, Scholar, Sexologist, Martyr, and Madwoman. New York: Basic Books.
- Ida Craddock married an angel in the 1890s and got harrased to death for it in 1902. The chapter title comes from Schmidt tearing down...
- Schroder, T. (1936). One Religio-Sexual Maniac. The Psychoanalytic Review, 23(1).
- More of Craddock.
- B.C.A./Nellie Parson Bean. (1909). My Life as a Dissociated Personality. Boston: Gorham Press.
- earliest medical multi autobiography we know about.
- Also Fox and Ara of Team Meg-John Barker's Plural Tarot Companion from 2025 because I think it's neat. :) (Their Plural Tarot is here!)
I had to stop because I ran out of toner (we were already low) but they all make for very small little zines! Still plenty of room in that box.
Still to-print:
- Mitchell, S. W. (1889). Mary Reynolds: A Case of Double Consciousness. Philadelphia: Wm. J. Dornan. Not to be confused with the Plumer article with the same title!
- the Anna Winsor/Old Stump case from 1889 (because that case was so hard to find, I never want to lose it again, augh)
- This article on Alma Z. from 1893!
- Cutten's two 1903 articles on John Kinsel, the guy who his whole college dorm knew about and they took to spanking him with textbooks to make him switch.
- The Doris Fischer case from 1916 (turns out we had it buried in our bummer files!)
- Brandsma's 1974 article about Jonah, just because finding ANY record of black male medical multiples is rare and terrible!
- Everything else I can find that we keep having reference!
Fic In A Box Reveals
21 Dec 2025 08:31 pmStill Here Together forDirect sequel toShinzuku206
Temeraire - Naomi Novik
Laurence & Temeraire
Hurt/Comfort, Hospitalization, Plushies, Recursive Fic
After his injury, Laurence is confined to the hospital for many weeks. Temeraire bears up bravely — then Laurence, too, learns what it is to worry.
I, of course, had to make it worse. ;-)
(Don't worry: despite it all, Laurence and Temeraire are still very sweet together.)
Privileges of the Purse forStableState prompted:StableState
Doctor Odyssey
Max, Avery, Tristan, Original Character
Worldbuilding, Humor
Most people wouldn't put a CT scanner on a cruise ship. The owners of the Odyssey aren't most people.
Or: Max meets Hugh "Doc" Laurent.
Who put a full-sized CT scanner on a cruise ship? Not to mention the HGTV feature wall of unlabeled medication in glass bottles (on a boat. With waves.) or the gene sequencer. Even the usual equipment is oddly gold and sleek. They have to be custom-ordered, or medical design is very different in our world.I read that prompt, laughed, and immediately grabbed the pinch-hit. "Privileges of the Purse" is my best crack at the first three questions.
(The final question is unaddressed in the story, but I assert there is a medical supplier out there who does fake-gold-plated medical equipment for a few select customers overly invested in faux-opulence; chief among them is the Trump Organization.)
What Does the Spleen Do? forJust after I finished my Temeraire story, a second pinch-hit came up for StableState. After I confirmed with the mods that my "excess" 600 words from the first pinch-hit could be applied to this one, I picked it up. After all, there had been a second prompt of theirs that had interested me: one for a music video about spleens.stablestate
What Does the Spleen Do? ft. Harvard Medical School Class of 2016
Cryptic Crossword
A splenic (but not asplenic!) cryptic criss-cross.
Fic In A Box has options for non-traditional fills: in addition to stories and art, it's possible to create works that fit various format or media opt-ins, one of which is cryptic crosswords. Which StableState had opted into for the spleen prompt! And what a lucky coincidence, I had just that week downloaded a course on how to do cryptic crosswords! I had read the first three chapters! Surely that was enough knowledge to design my own cryptic crossword??
(
So I sailed in and did my best. It was fun! My grid was sub-standard (and I need to figure out how it is that people make up good grids), but it was neat to try to make up clues.
Happily, I had the wisdom to ask
(I am... not sure that anyone has solved it who isn't Ferret? But the recip left a nice thank you, and I shall be content with that.)
Daily Happiness
21 Dec 2025 08:09 pm2. Speaking of ordering things online, you may remember when I decided to stock up on shoes because I didn't want to risk these ones being discontinued when I actually needed to replace them. Well, as it turns out, I think I misjudged the size when I ordered them online, and the new ones are painful (the right shoe hurts my arch and gives me shin splints). I had a vague memory that when I purchased the first pair in store that they were a wide. It was a size smaller than I usually wear, but fit well. But when I went to order them online, wide was not an option, so I thought maybe I was misremembering and these just feel wide while being a regular width shoe. Buuuuut, I think they were actually a wide, and as it turns out Adidas does sell that shoe in a wide, but it's a separate entry on the website rather than the main entry allowing you to choose both size and width. I have two pairs unworn in the closet and was able to still submit a return for those, and in fact went to FedEx today and shipped them off. The pair I already wore a fair bit was also ordered too long ago to return anyway, so I'll just donate that to Goodwill. They're almost brand new and will fit someone who is not me very well. A new pair in wide is coming tomorrow, and hopefully those will fit correctly because I don't want to wear my old shoes in the rain because they have no tread left on them and are very slippery.
3. There is a little gyro place up the street from us that has been there forever. We used to go there fairly often when it was under the original management, but in recent years it has changed hands twice and also I try to avoid things with a lot of garlic and onion, so we haven't eaten there in ages. But we decided to try it out today and while they have overly complicated the menu and added burgers and other random stuff, they do still have gyros and they are still delicious.
4. We had a delicious dinner tonight, too. We were planning to have one of the frozen Chicago deep dish pizzas Carla's aunt had ordered for us, but then Carla decided she wanted to make latkes, too, since we didn't do that last Sunday when Alex was over. So we had pizza and latkes, which is not the most traditional combination but both were very tasty.
5. I would estimate Chloe spends a good 80% of her time in the warming bed during the winter lol.

Misc +++
21 Dec 2025 08:17 pm+ Mom brought me a ~chocolate wine~ the other day. Supposedly it's a digestif made up of chocolate and red wine, but it doesn't taste like wine at all. It tastes kind of like chocolate milk mixed with rum or something like that. Very interesting drink; probably not something I'd pick up myself mind you, as it's a little gimmicky (and was probably expensive), but interesting.
+ [Event]
+ I didn't set a wordcount goal for myself for 2025. On the one hand, I found it much easier to work around my schedule than previous years, which is good. On the other hand, I didn't get much writing done (though I did do some!). I'm wondering what I should do this year... Like, should I set a (low, manageable) wordcount goal, or should I set a goal to finish a handful of specific fics? Hard to say! I'm going to have to take a look at my WIPs before I make any decisions.
+ I really miss Hetalia roleplaying. ;~; I was thinking back on some of the threads I've done over the years, and feeling very nostalgic. Playing Nor was a total blast - but it's also very important that I had some really awesome partners. ;~; Folie, Wald, Chi, Jay... They were all so good at their characters. (And all seem to have dropped out of my orbit and/or fandom in general in some cases, unfortunately). Sometimes I feel like seeking out new people to play with, but the thought of trying is so daunting, I wouldn't even know where to start. Plus, I doubt I'd be able to commit.
+ And also I think in general I miss having random places to braindump Hetalia thoughts. Finding a good fit for me is hard. Probably too nostalgic for the LJ/DW era.
Poem: "The Unknown Depths of Our Lives"
21 Dec 2025 08:09 pm( Read more... )
Needlepoint Update!
21 Dec 2025 09:16 pm( finished works )
I also finished needlepointing a couple of coasters and ornaments, but still need to do the final finishing (backing, cording, etc.).
A bunch of the attorneys I work with want to commission me to make them key fobs now, lol. I told them I just needed them to cover cost of supplies -- I am not a professional at this.
Live the days.
21 Dec 2025 07:54 pmIt's due for a chill here this week - not much below freezing, but wind and some rain. I've got nowhere to go and not much to do, and all of this together has me looking at my tea collection and thinking about where to get started and what I might be able to finish. Modest goals building towards larger ones, as the days begin building up again.
searching for Sentinel fic
21 Dec 2025 05:01 pmI'm trying to find a Sentinel AU in which Jim and Blair first meet while Blair is working as an elf for a mall Santa. Jim is grounded by Blair's voice, even though Jim has no clue about the Sentinel stuff yet, and is also charmed by a story about a magic feather that Blair invents on the spot to calm an anxious child.
It sounds cute, but I've only read Sentinel XO fics. Anyone recognize it? It sounds very cute!
Daily Check-In
21 Dec 2025 07:59 pmHow are you doing?
I am OK
9 (47.4%)
I am not OK, but don't need help right now
10 (52.6%)
I could use some help
0 (0.0%)
How many other humans live with you?
I am living single
5 (26.3%)
One other person
10 (52.6%)
More than one other person
4 (21.1%)
Please, talk about how things are going for you in the comments, ask for advice or help if you need it, or just discuss whatever you feel like.
"they opened up their eyes and saw the sun coming out" (antje duvekot)
21 Dec 2025 07:10 pmThis sure has been a year. I adopted two new gardens, finished
The dog sled is a kit that's supposed to double as a kicksled; it should arrive in a couple of weeks. (Daphne will not be pulling it. If I'm lucky she'll ride for a bit.) I just learned about kicksledding ::checks:: yesterday, so. As per usual.
Relatedly, I heard the following fun bilingualism today:
“我已经try very hard to 给我自己花钱。” ("I already try very hard to spend money on myself.")
Currently in legos I'm building a waterfall, which the box tells me will light up and move when I'm done. Despite my decades of STEM employment, my engineering experience is largely limited to assembling furniture and garden equipment. I suppose success or failure will determine whether this part of the jianghu becomes Cloud Recesses or Lotus Pier.
I found the velociraptors, by the way. And the dolphins! The dolphins are now frolicking at the foot of Baoshan Sanren's mountain. (I've already forgotten what I did with the velociraptors. They might be in the garden.)
The sky was very beautiful today.
( pictures of solstice sunup and sundown )
no subject
21 Dec 2025 06:19 pmIt seems I can't have caffeine later than 4 pm now. Had a Pepsi yesterday while it was still light, so probably 4ish, and was rewarded with a nuit blanche. Read one-eyed until probably close to 4 am and then finally got five hours sleep. Usually this leaves me bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, but have been heavy-eyed and headachy all day. Possibly to do with the wild winds all night and day.
However, place around the corner from me was having a cookies and hot chocolate fundraiser, so I went off to that in the grey wind and tiny snow flurries. In spite of temps they were outside and I trundled up in good time. Except the guy ahead of me insisted on thanking everyone involved, and shaking hands all round, and making everyone sing Hosanna-- no, not that one, which I could have borne, but something else in a foreign language that had a lot of Hosannas in it. And after a good five minutes, when he was finally done and leaving and I was moving up to the table to order, back he comes because he has to tell the little girl standing by her dad that Jesus loves her, and he has to shake her hand, and then shake everyone else's hands again as well. I wish at such times I could keep my face Japanese blank but I never learned that trick, so I'm sure I was broadcasting 'God save me from religious enthusiasts' far and wide. Mind, it's equally possible that he was just drunk. I shall never know.
FIC: To Make a Dream (Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan) [M]
22 Dec 2025 12:23 amFandom: 镇魂 | Guardian (TV 2018)
Rating: Mature
Relationship: Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan
Characters: Shen Wei, Zhao Yunlan, brief appearances by Ye Zun and the SID
Content Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Episode Related, Episode 31, Nightmare Master arc, Dream Sharing, Dixing Powers, Black and White Energy, First Kiss, First Time, Pre-Fix-It
Summary:
"You took a while to wake," Shen Wei said gently. "I brought you home." He ran a hand through his hair. "I needed rest, too."
So that was the fantasy: something Zhao Yunlan could almost, almost believe. His heart clenched. Suddenly he understood Zhu Hong's temptation to keep dreaming. But the true Shen Wei was still missing. Zhao Yunlan needed to wake up for real.
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21 Dec 2025 10:03 amanyway that's how I felt about the central relationship in The Legend of ShenLi, which is a xianxia cdrama about ✨ The Greatest General Of The Demon Realm ✨ and her epic romance with -- well. For the first five or six episodes ShenLi, the Greatest General of the Demon Realm, is trapped on Earth in the form of an angry CGI chicken, in the care of a sickly human scholar who has discovered that his angry CGI chicken is in fact some sort of supernatural entity and thinks the whole situation is very funny.
Here, for the record, is angry chicken ShenLi:

and here is ShenLi and her love interest when nobody is a chicken:

This whole introductory arc is really charming. Incredibly happy for that sickly scholar and his angry bird wife. But alas! all things must end, the lovers are parted, and ShenLi The Greatest General of the Demon Realm grimly returns home to confront her upcoming political marriage to a playboy from the Divine Realm, in the full assumption that she will never see her sickly scholar again because even aside from the political pressures one day in the Demon Realm equals a year in the human realm so the time difference is not workable.
However! then some monster nonsense starts happening in the Demon Realm, and so the Divine Realm sends its last surviving actual factual god to help out -- who bears a Mysterious Resemblance to ShenLi's sickly human boyfriend .... ( spoilers )
But enough about the leads! ( Here's a short list of my other favorite people in the drama, cut for some images as well )
Dept. of Fuck These Lying Fucks
21 Dec 2025 01:42 pmI'll not go over what this image is about, because y'all know it. Thank you, superbly foul-mouthed political commentator Jeff Tiedrich for showing it to me and many others.
Here you go:
Washing and Clean Challenges: Women's Soccer RPF: Fanfiction: Laundry Day
21 Dec 2025 06:00 pmFandom: Women's Soccer RPF
Pairings: Hope Solo/Kelley O'Hara
Characters: Hope Solo, Kelley O'Hara
Rating: G
Length: 130 words
Summary: Hope finished Kelley's laundry for her.
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From Dejima to Miyajima, by way of Amsterdam
21 Dec 2025 11:00 pm
On Wednesday I met my friend Mami at Haneda, and we flew to Nagasaki for a couple of days. I'd long wanted to visit, not least because this is the city that was the only toe-hold for direct contact between Japan and the West (more specifically the Dutch) from the 1630s to the 1850s - i.e. for most of the Edo period, when Japan had a policy of isolation (often known as sakoku). Even the Dutch, who were there purely as traders, were confined to a small artificial island known as Dejima - about 120/75m. (This was not reclaimed land, as I had somehow imagined, but was formed by a cutting a canal through a small peninsula.)
Dejima is no longer an island, but they've done a fine reconstruction job. Life there was rather more spacious than one might have enjoyed on a ship of the era, but it must have been tantalising being just a short bridge's width from the rest of the city. Nagasaki citizens weren't allowed in, either - though an exception seems to have been made for prostitutes.



The tablet computer in the last picture shows Nagasaki as it would have looked at the time, with a clear view to the mouth of the bay - rather than with a bunch of buildings in the way.
Nagasaki is, by Japanese standards, a very cosmopolitan city, with its relative proximity to the Asian mainland (it has a famous Chinatown) and its history of Dutch and, before that, Portugese trade - which can be seen in the ubiquitous Castella cakes. Here and there, though, a trace of the old sakoku spirit still remains, as in this pair of QR codes, where the Japanese "Guidance to business opening hours" has been Englished simply as "For foreigner" - which felt a little on the nose!

There's more to Nagasaki than Dejima, not least in terms of food. Most famous of all perhaps is Nagasaki champon, which, having been invented in Nagasaki by a Chinese restaurant owner, is as Japanese as chicken tikka masala is British. We sampled it in the original restaurant:


Nagasaki bay, when seen from above, sans buildings, is lovely. Other highlights included the trams (I'm a sucker for a tram, and this is the third Japanese city I've seen them in after Matsuyama and Hakodate) and a really charming bookshop-cum-picture-book museum, which had something of the air of the Ghibli Museum in its architecture:



We also took a day to visit Hui Ten Bosch - the Dutch theme park. I'm not sure what I was expecting, but it definitely wasn't this:

And yet, in retrospect, how could it have been otherwise? Actually, Huis Ten Bosch is on a truly grand scale, and in terms of recreating buildings it puts even British Hills in Fukushima in the shade. Highly recommended if you find yourself on the shores of Omura bay with time on your hands!




I said my goodbyes to Mami on Saturday and started working my way back to Tokyo, albeit by a very circuitous route. First stop was Miyajima, home of the famous floating torii gate. This was the one night of the trip when I splashed out on a ryokan, mostly so that I could stay overnight on Itsukushima island (where Miyajima is located). I'd been told that it was easier to beat the crowds if one stayed overnight, though to be honest the crowds weren't that big - no doubt because of the season. (There were, however, more Westerners in evidence here than anywhere else I've stayed.) This meant that I was able to experience the shrine about both low and high tides:




It also got me this view from my bedroom window:

And, of course, ryokan style meals. This was breakfast, before and after the battle:


Altogether, an amazing place. The next day I set off on the next leg of my journey, to the place I'm writing this entry. But where is that place? Tune in next time to find out!
Edwardian vandalism
21 Dec 2025 09:56 pm
324/365: 1908 graffiti, Bewdley Bridge
Yet another grey and damp day to mark the Winter Solstice. I most definitely did not see the sun rise, or indeed see the sun at all! Today's photo is one of the lesser-known pieces of Bewdley's history. In one of the pedestrian tunnels under Bewdley Bridge along the Wribbenhall bank there's this old example of graffiti. You may just be able to make out the initials "T.S." to the left, but in any case the year 1908 is very clear. Cut with a knife, of course, so it would have taken rather longer for this Edwardian vandal than for the modern equivalent tagging with a spray can!
The December Comfort Watches 2025, Day 21: Kill Bill: Vol. 1
21 Dec 2025 09:26 pm

There are better movies that Quentin Tarantino has written and directed than Kill Bill: Vol. 1, but I strongly believe there no other film of his that is more him than this one. Most of those other films — Inglourious Basterds, Django Unchained, Once Upon a Time in Hollywood and of course Pulp Fiction, are about other things, ranging from a day in the life of various petty criminals, to rewriting history because it’s just so much cooler that way. And while those other films are very clearly done in a way that only Tarantino could or would choose to do them, this is the one film above all others (even and including Kill Bill: Vol. 2) where it is all about what Quentin Tarantino wants. His wants. His needs. His desires. This film, from the top of Lucy Liu’s head to the bottom of Uma Thurman’s feet, is a distilled cinematic trip through Tarantino’s id. And what a trip it is.
The plot, which is really just the thinnest of scaffoldings for Tarantino’s obsessions: Uma Thurman (whose character is not given a name in this film, and when and if anyone says it, it’s bleeped out) plays a super mega badass hot assassin chick who after years of, you know, killing the shit out of people, decides to leave it all behind when she finds out she’s pregnant. This does not thrill Bill (David Carradine), her boss and also boyfriend, and he makes that point known at her wedding, not to him, when he and the other members of the super mega badass hot assassins he fields into the world show up and shoot everyone and every thing at the venue, including the bride. When she wakes up from a coma a few years later, babyless, she naturally does what anyone in her position would do: Makes a list of everyone who tried to kill her with the goal of returning the favor.
That’s it! That’s the movie! Thank you and good night!
But of course that’s not actually the movie. The movie is not the plot, the movie is how the plot gets done. And for Tarantino, who is a pop culture magpie and has also fundamentally never stopped, in his heart, being a thirteen-year-old boy, how it gets done is by piling on every single movie and television genre he’s ever loved. Japanese anime and crime films? In here. Hong Kong action cinema? Absolutely one hundred percent on call. Spaghetti westerns and blacksploitation? Present in visuals, score and sound design. The actors from these genres that Tarantino idolized? They’re in the cast. From Michael Parks’ aping of Charlie Chan to Thurman wearing Bruce Lee’s yellow athletic apparel, this film is not just filled with cinematic Easter eggs, it’s a whole goddamned Easter parade.
Why did Tarantino do this? Because this is who he is, man. He is the first superstar Hollywood director to have come out of the video store era — he even worked in a video store for a while in Manhattan Beach before making a go of it in the film industry — and he’s a self-taught filmmaker. Not for him the hallowed halls of USC or NYU’s film schools; he just watched a boatload of movies, from classics to complete crap, and gave each of them equal weight in his weird little brain. It’s very clear that Tarantino does not have a bias against genre for agreed-upon “important films.” He likes what he likes, and fuck you if you don’t like it, too. It’s not his problem if you don’t.
Which I think is fine! At the end of the day, there is no high culture or low culture, there’s just the culture that sticks, and that’s what’s used as the building blocks in the next round of creation. One era’s pop culture is another era’s “classic” culture — and here we haul Shakespeare and Dickens onto the stage to wave before unceremoniously shoving them into the orchestra pit with a crash — and ultimately what sticks, what makes it through the sieve of time and the sheer mass of creative output, is what the new generation of creative people love, champion, reference, combine and in some cases just flat out imitate.
What’s in Kill Bill: Vol. 1 is everything that made Tarantino. At this point, he’s made Reservoir Dogs, Pulp Fiction and Jackie Brown, won an Oscar and is a reliable (if not staggering) box office draw, and was responsible, directly and indirectly, for a whole cottage industry of mostly violent, mostly indie, mostly dude-centric films in the 90s. If anyone is at this point allowed to make a film that is basically them playing with all their favorite cinematic toys, it’s going to be Tarantino.
There’s one other thing, not to be discounted: Tarantino may be crawling both into his mind, a bit up his own ass, with Kill Bill: Vol.1, but he also remembers that he’s got to make the film actually entertaining to the people who are not him. Kill Bill was originally written and shot as a single film, but during the assembly process, Miramax studio head Harvey Weinstein (in the days when the only way women got told he was a raping creep was through whisper networks) suggested making two films out of the material. Weinstein is criminal scum who will hopefully die in jail, but his film instincts here were correct; it allowed Tarantino to overweight the really cool action stuff into Vol. 1, while letting the more somber and emotional aspects of the tale carry Vol. 2, i.e., the one everyone saw because they had bought into the first film and were left high and dry by one of the best cliffhangers in cinematic history.
(There is now a Kill Bill: The Whole Bloody Affair, which unifies the two volumes into a single long film, with a couple scenes added, some amended, and some others dropped, including that banger of a cliffhanger. I have not seen this version yet but this will not stop me from suggesting that a more-than-four-and-a-half hour version of the film is not what Tarantino would have been able to get away with had Weinstein not allowed his film to be split into two. I for one would be curious to see what a no-longer-than-three-hours edit of Kill Bill would have been, using footage from both volumes, as it would have had to have been. We will never get that, though, and in any event I think the film was best served being twain.)
Kill Bill: Vol. 1 is about Tarantino and all the things that make him tick, but it’s Uma Thurman who is in it the whole damn time, save for a few interludes and reaction shots. Thurman was not a passive vessel for this film — the story is credited to “Q & U,” meaning both her and Tarantino — and the whole thing rides on her shoulders. It’s not an exaggeration to say that this film is the defining one in her career, the one where Thurman gets to do it all: Be aggressive, be vulnerable, be a badass, be scared, play tough and play vulnerable. And, also, hack through literally dozens of people with a samurai sword, which is the dream of so many people, regardless of gender. None of the world of Kill Bill is real, none of it can be real (see John Wick for another example of this). But it doesn’t matter if it’s real, it matters if we believe in it while it’s happening. It’s up to Thurman to make us see it. She does.
I’ve noted above that this film is clearly Tarantino’s most personal project, and I would like to point out how absolutely weird it is that this is the man’s statement of being — until, that is, you think about it. If you’re, say, Steven Spielberg, you make The Fabelmans. If you’re Ingmar Bergman, you make Fanny and Alexander. If you’re John Boorman you make Hope & Glory. All semi-autobiographical movies about the early days of the filmmaker in question, or at least, about a stand-in who represents the filmmaker.
The thing is, Kill Bill: Vol 1 is exactly that thing. This movie is all about Tarantino’s early days, all the things, cinematically, that he imprinted upon. And while Thurman’s character cannot be separated from the actress and should not be, a idea of a secret badass in a desperate battle against the legions who want them dead? Oh, that’s absolutely the sort of power fantasy that kept young Quentin up at night, the wheels of his imagination turning.
This is Tarantino. You want to understand him, watch this film. He’s put himself out there for you to see. All you have to do is look.
— JS
A kid that didn't know better
21 Dec 2025 04:39 pmI mean this was me, a year later. Not like I was watching Taxi Driver

Write every day: Day 21
21 Dec 2025 10:34 pmTally:
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Day 20:
Day 21:
Bonus farm news: Spent some time cutting off spruce branches that were hanging too low over the gravel road (i e lower than 4.5 meters), as is, alas, my responsibility as land owner. This involved a ladder, a climbing harness and some rope, and a long-handled pruning saw.
Happy holidays, Black Dwarf and coralysendria!
21 Dec 2025 02:35 pmCategory: F/M, M/M
Characters: Duncan, Methos, Rebecca Horne, Darius, Kronos, Gina de Valicourt, Joe Dawson
Relationships: Duncan MacLeod/Methos, Rebecca Horne/Methos, Darius/Methos
Summary: Methos hesitates and hesitates to tell Duncan about his past with the Horsemen. By the time of Bordeaux, he regrets not having done it sooner.
A Lesson in Steel by Anonymous for coralysendria
Category: Gen
Characters: Duncan MacLeod, Connor MacLeod, Richie Ryan, Brenda Wyatt
Relationships: Duncan MacLeod & Richie Ryan, Duncan MacLeod & Connor MacLeod, Connor MacLeod & Richie Ryan, Connor MacLeod/Brenda Wyatt
Summary: Connor tests Richie.
Done This Week
21 Dec 2025 12:22 pmLong story short, I had a rather harrowing experience of thinking I might have murdered my car. It’s fine. Everything’s fine. No need to panic. ⊙﹏⊙
Though we had our misgivings, the holiday meal that our manager set up for my team ended up being spectacular. I still think he’s a ninny about professional matters, but I can hardly find fault with an entirely homemade prime rib lunch. Yum!
Lewisia: 3 new pieces written
Day job: 42.5 hours
Cooking: biscuits for party potluck
Gardening: succulent club holiday party
Reading: The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy: Secondary Phase and Tertiary Phase (continuing the BBC Radio productions)
Listening: Secrets Nobody Keeps by Jon Gomm, plus the single “Shchedryk (Carol Of The Bells)” (of “Passionflower” viral fame, an interesting mix of vibes)
Clock Mouse: 1029 words
Other: donated blood
Every Girl Crazy
21 Dec 2025 12:16 pm"This recipe is a real celebration of autumn. It's a sweet-savoury combination of apples, shallots, and cheese. Serve with a sharply dressed salad." (Which I assume is made by ZZ Top.)
( Galette Me Try This )
Fic: Making Memories (Dragon Age)
21 Dec 2025 03:08 pmChapters: 1/1
Fandom: Dragon Age: Origins, Dragon Age: Inquisition, Dragon Age - All Media Types
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Leliana/Female Tabris (Dragon Age)
Characters: Female Tabris (Dragon Age), Leliana (Dragon Age), Original Child Character(s)
Additional Tags: The Joining Exchange, Mortality, Motherhood, One Shot, Post-Dragon Age: Inquisition - Trespasser DLC, Slice of Life
Summary: It was nothing but a quiet moment just like any other before or after it. There was nothing particularly special or memorable about it, and yet for a few minutes it was everything.
DecRecs 2025 days 18-21
21 Dec 2025 11:31 amDay 18
Today is one of those days where I really wish I was capable of napping. But since that isn't going to work I'm planning on spending some time curled up on the sofa with an ereader full of fic an hopefully a cat on my lap
So for today's #DecRecs I want to rec one of my favorite fics ever "on a long journey" by twigofwillow
https://archiveofourown.org/works/29819775/chapters/73366473
This is a Lan Sizhui centric post-canon CQL fic and It's really the best!
Things I love about "On a Long Journey":
*It's beautifully written
*The characterization is so perfect!
*The way the story is non-linear and includes. memories, stories and letters (Jiang Cheng's letter is so funny and pitch prefect)
*found family and good feelings while still letting people be complex and messy!
Day 19
For today's #DecRecs I have a really cool boardgame that I first played this year Vantage by Designer Jamey Stegmaier
basically your party crash lands on an alien planet and you are all in different locations, represented by illustrated cards. You can tell the other people about the cards but not show them the cards
It's very fail forward game, so you kinda wander around and interact with the environment and maybe complete some goals. There's lots of cool stuff to do! Once I have taken a child on an adventure, almost gotten eaten by a dragon, and stolen a flying vehicle!
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Slo-Mo Rewatch: Guardian episode 8, part 2
21 Dec 2025 08:11 pm
Hi, welcome to this week's instalment of the Guardian drama Slo-Mo Rewatch! Watch half an episode a week, and then come and chat about it here in comments. Or you can just jump into the comments without rewatching, of course!
Here is last week's half-episode. On to the second half!
Episode 8, from 22:19:
Summary: In Dixing, the Regent sends a smoke message. In Haixing, Shen Wei pours his drunk mentor into car and then finds Zhao Yunlan ill on the kerb. He takes him home in a taxi (where he serves as a pillow), then discovers Zhao Yunlan's disaster apartment (featuring: wine bottles, dirty dishes, THE FRIDGE). During the night, Zhu Jiu finds the pillar with the Mountain-River Awl, but can't approach it. Meanwhile Shen Wei discovers that Zhao Yunlan asked Dixing about him and the Regent is ratting him out. He alters the message. In the morning, Zhao Yunlan wakes up to a tidy flat and Shen Wei sitting next to his bed. He tries to recruit Shen Wei for the SID again, but fails again. Wang Zheng sees a newspaper report about an earthquake in the Hanga mountains, passes out and regains her memory. Da Qing comes to tell Zhao Yunlan and finds Shen Wei there in the early morning. The Sundial begins to glow and resonate with the Awl; Lin Jing traces the source to the mountains.

Quote:
Shen Wei: "I suggest you eat regular meals. I don't want to find you on the road again."
Zhao Yunlan: "If you want to know whether I eat regular meals, why don't you just join ourSID, and you'll know?"
Shen Wei: "So your SID doesn't need a consultant, it needs a nanny?"
Detail:
I always notice that when Shen Wei takes off Zhao Yunlan's boots, he accidentally slips one of Zhao Yunlan's socks off his heel and doesn't pull it back up, argh! :p
Questions:
What's going through Shen Wei's head in the taxi? How is Zhao Yunlan feeling about Shen Wei taking him home? What's your favourite detail in Zhao Yunlan's flat? What's Shen Wei's favourite detail? Why do you think Zhao Yunlan keeps trying to recruit Shen Wei after Shen Wei has refused more than once? Do you think Shen Wei is seriously hoping to warn Zhao Yunlan away from leaving Dragon City? Why is Da Qing surprised to find Shen Wei with Zhao Yunlan in the morning? Why does Wang Zheng try to leave the SID? Any thoughts about how any of this compares to the novel? Or about parallels with other parts of the drama?
(These are all just conversation starters - feel free to answer all, some, or none, and to say as much or as little as you like! You don't have to be keeping up with the rewatch to join in!)
For the next two weekends, we're taking a break for the holidays - time to catch up on the rewatch, if you've been meaning to! Regular posts will resume on 9 January.
Here is our schedule for the current batch of episodes - please do sign up to host a post if you can!
Climate Change
21 Dec 2025 12:48 pmEarth’s climate control system may cool so hard after warming that it freezes the planet over.
Scientists have uncovered a missing feedback in Earth’s carbon cycle that could cause global warming to overshoot into an ice age. As the planet warms, nutrient-rich runoff fuels plankton blooms that bury huge amounts of carbon in the ocean. In low-oxygen conditions, this process can spiral out of control, cooling Earth far beyond its original state. While this won’t save us from modern climate change, it may explain Earth’s most extreme ancient ice ages.
It's not missing and it's not new. This aspect of prehistoric climate change has been discussed for decades. Also several decades ago, as climate change began to attract more attention, there were debates over whether the bounce effect would cause global cooling instead of global warming. For a while there were disaster novels with an ice theme instead of a fire theme, before the current warming trend became more obvious.
However! Even global warming will making some areas drastically colder. Once the oceanic conveyor belt breaks -- which is already wobbling -- places like Britain will lose their warm currents and thus chill.
Link: Let's support trans children
21 Dec 2025 10:47 am[I]n the trenches of trans health care, there is a growing idea that pushes back against the “one true gender for each individual” framing altogether—one that could allow us to resolve the bitterly divisive culture war over the psychological and medical care of transgender children. What if, instead of viewing gender as a fixed trait, we started to think of it as something that could evolve over the course of a lifetime? Or if detransitioning wasn’t considered a sign of failure and was instead regarded as a natural and healthy part of the gender development process?
Birdfeeding
21 Dec 2025 12:46 pmI fed the birds. I've seen a few sparrows and house finches. Some birds are singing in the south hedge.
I put out water for the birds.
EDIT 12/21/25 -- I did a bit of work around the patio.
EDIT 12/21/25 -- I did more work around the patio.
EDIT 12/21/25 -- I did more work around the patio.
I am done for the night.
Birdfeeding
21 Dec 2025 12:45 pmI fed the birds. I've seen a few sparrows and house finches. Some birds are singing in the south hedge.
I put out water for the birds.
EDIT 12/21/25 -- I did a bit of work around the patio.
EDIT 12/21/25 -- I did more work around the patio.
EDIT 12/21/25 -- I did more work around the patio.
I am done for the night.
Film post: The Last House on the Left (1972)
21 Dec 2025 05:22 pm
This is certainly not a film I thought I'd be covering here, but sometimes life comes at you unexpectedly. It's also almost impossible for me to review, even more so than with The Texas Chain Saw Massacre, because of the enormous ethical concerns with its production. As a movie, though, Wes Craven's directing debut (if you don't count all the porn he made under pseudonyms) is extremely uneven, and if it didn't have his name on it I suspect it would be largely forgotten. There are sequences which have genuine power – a sequence after Mari's (Sandra Peabody, credited as Sandra Cassel) torture and rape as she quietly prays, then walks slowly into a lake to await her murder, gives her more dignity than Krug (David Hess) and his gang will ever have in their lives. The hand-held, "found footage" style makes the violence and forced nudity seem unsettlingly real, but it also feels deeply exploitative at times – a reminder that in the early 1970s Craven was not the thoughtful "master of horror" he later became. The intercut scenes involving the comic cops are utterly bizarre, and the "revenge" part that spans the last half hour is a bit of a mess. Despite those flashes of real power, this really is not a great film in its own right. No rating (see below)
Even more so than with Texas Chain Saw, this review is for the film as a film, because ethically it is a disaster. Not in terms of what's on-screen, which is largely not extreme by today's standards. But the production of Last House was appallingly unkind to one of its stars, Sandra Peabody. Craven himself acknowledged that she was deeply frightened while acting some of the more violent and explicit scenes, and that he stood back and let it play out. Worse, if David Hess and Marc Sheffler (who played Junior) are to be believed – though with the former that's questionable – they both threatened her with serious violence in order to provoke reactions; the fact that neither intended to follow through does not remove the abusiveness. Hess threatened to rape her "if you don't behave yourself" and Sheffler threatened to push her off a cliff to make her look scared enough for an emotionally important scene.
Be aware if you watch this movie that in the case of Mari, a good deal of the fear you see in Peabody's face on screen is genuine, not acted. The rape scene, when by Sheffler's own account she was terrified by Hess's aggressive interpretation of Krug – during three long takes with none of the psychological and emotional safeguards of a modern set – is even harder to watch when you know that. Peabody walked out of a cast and crew screening halfway through, "horrified and upset" at what she saw. Craven's name gives Last House a kind of shield against criticism. It shouldn't, because although he personally did not abuse her, a young actress suffered significantly – and if Hess's words are true, extremely severely – in its production.
I cannot in all conscience give a star rating to a film like that.
That old Unix tape from 1974? Successfully dumped to a tarball!
21 Dec 2025 10:00 amAnyway, it looks like recovery of the tape was successful! With everything going on in my life, I don't have the ability to dig into the story right now, just wanted to get this out for my fellow geeks. Here's the Slashdot summary that you can dive into if you like:
Archive.org now has a page with "the raw analog waveform and the reconstructed digital tape image (analog.tap), read at the Computer History Museum's Shustek Research Archives on 19 December 2025 by Al Kossow using a modified tape reader and analyzed with Len Shustek's readtape tool." A Berlin-based retrocomputing enthusiast has created a page with the contents of the tape ready for bootstrapping, "including a tar file of the filesystem," and instructions on dumping an RK05 disk image from tape to disk (and what to do next).
Research professor Rob Ricci at the University of Utah's school of computing posted pictures and video of the tape-reading process, along with several updates. ("So far some of our folks think they have found Hunt The Wumpus and the C code for a Snobol interpreter.") University researcher Mike Hibler noted the code predates the famous comment "You are not expected to understand this" — and found part of the C compiler with a copyright of 1972.
The version of Unix recovered seems to have some (but not all) of the commands that later appeared in Unix v5, according to discussion on social media. "UNIX wasn't versioned as we know it today," explains University of Utah PhD student Thalia Archibald, who researched early Unix history (including the tape) and also worked on its upload. "In the early days, when you wanted to cut a tape, you'd ask Ken if it was a good day — whether the system was relatively bug-free — and copy off the research machine... I've been saying It's probably V5 minus a tiny bit, which turned out to be quite true."
https://tech.slashdot.org/story/25/12/21/020235/bell-labs-unix-tape-from-1974-successfully-dumped-to-a-tarball
"Pillar Of The Community." (Wake Up Dead Man) G
21 Dec 2025 10:55 amTitle: Pillar Of The Community.
Author:
Fandom: Wake Up Dead Man (2025)
Rating: G
Archives: Archive Of Our Own, SquidgeWorld (To be added when the site is back up)
Summary: Martha Grace Wicks, from her first murder to her last.
( Flashfic! )




