missing my cat

[firecat]

I really appreciate everyone's condolences about Biscuit. I'm fortunate that the people in my life understand it's hard to lose a pet.


For me one of the hard things is that the little habits we had together are gone, but very alive in my memory, and there will be a moment where I expect something to happen and then remember why it's not happening, and I feel very sad.

Biscuit sads:

The OH left the door to the bedroom open when he got up, but she wasn't there when i woke up. (She used to come into the bedroom and wake me.)

She didn't come into the bathroom and go "meep?" when I got up to go to the bathroom.

She wasn't running in and out of the kitchen impatiently while I made my coffee. I didn't make her breakfast along with my coffee.

She didn't sharpen her claws on the cat condo and then jump up on it when I sat down at my computer.

My computer was asleep, because she didn't walk on the keyboard last night on her way to the bedroom.

Comments

[rhivolution]

I'm really sorry for your loss. (And I'm sorry I missed the original post.)

[bcholmes]

I'm so sorry. Loss scrapes.

[meloukhia]

Those little things are the worst. Almost two years after Shadow died, I still expect him to squeak at me in the morning. And I still automatically sweep the floor with one foot for Mr. Bell before getting off the bed...

[jae]

God, I know exactly how this feels. Sigh. And it sucks SO much.

-J

[beaq.livejournal.com]

*pets horrible Tish as she yows me awake at 6am*

[firecat]

Yes, exactly.

[baerana.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. After losing Nibbler 9 months ago, I totally relate. I still have those moments. *hugs* - msg me any time you need to talk. <3

[firecat]

*hugs* Thanks. ♥

[19-crows.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I know about those little moments too.

[graymalkin13.livejournal.com]

I can just picture her doing those things. ♥

[okoshun.livejournal.com]

I'm so dreading this moment myself. Bean's getting older and creakier, sleeping more, getting thinner... Having lost cats in the past, I totally understand. :(

[firecat]

I hope you get to enjoy Bean for a lot longer.

[okoshun.livejournal.com]

I hope so too. *crossing fingers*

[sabotabby]

I can relate to this. It's just awful. I dread the day when it happens again, because Marinetti is so much a part of my life and means so much to me.

Anyway, thinking of you tons.

[firecat]

I did a little better at not pre-grieving Biscuit than I did with my Selkie. Sometimes this "being able to anticipate the future" feature of the brain is problematic.

[jillzilla.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm going to adopt the word 'pre-grieving'. It's such a good description of the way we can look too much to the future and make losses even harder than they are by nature.

I got sad at the thought of a lovely cat meeping in the bathroom.

[firecat]

I used to think pre-grieving would help make the loss easier to bear, but it really doesn't.

[tesseract26.livejournal.com]

I hear you. Those little noises and quirks are so precious. I'm sorry this is such a tough time. Holding a good thought for you.

[firecat]

Thank you.

[selki.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[elainegrey.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear of your loss. *listens*

[jinian.livejournal.com]

The details are so hard. I'm sorry.