Talk draining out of me

[firecat]

I've been feeling a bit guilty over the past few days that much of my reaction to what's going on is quiet and internal, that that I am not announcing more frequently / vociferously my support for people who are suffering or my concern about people who are missing or my disapproval of attitudes such as "this happened because we don't have prayer in the schools" and "vengeance now at any cost."

I'm going to stop feeling guilty about it.

I care.

Comments

[kshandra]

And sometimes, that's all anyone can ask for.

[klwalton.livejournal.com]

Nothing to feel guilty about as far as I can see. We, each of us, handle things the way we have to, and that's that.
If the people who live with me saw the amount of stuff I've written, they'd be amazed, because I've spoken very little about it all. But writing about it, to friends, to LJ, to my private journal, to a newsgroup or two, to Wombat, a trickle here, a trickle there, has allowed me to process this in my own way.

You said:
I care.

I know.

[firecat]

well said. thanks...

This made me think

[mactavish.livejournal.com]

I've done much of my mourning in private. I feel -- and strongly -- but not in exactly the same way as anyone I know, and it feels fairer and safer to do it alone.

This article rang steel for me:
http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2001/09/14/DD154994.DTL

Mary

[femmediva.livejournal.com]

We all have the right to feel/grieve/handle this in the way that's best for us. And just because a person keeps their own counsel, I don't believe it means they don't care.

[joedecker.livejournal.com]

In the past few days we've witnessed one of the
most traumatic events of the last several decades. I haven't been able to write much about this either--I've been deleting without reading many threads about subjects that I feel strongly about, because I'm not ready. I feel a little bad about it sometimes, but I believe strongly that I have a right to my own feelings and grieving methods, and I believe strongly that you do too.

If you're feeling judged about this by anyone else, perhaps it will help to know this:
I can't imagine anyone I know that knows you who would think you don't care, or who would judge you for needing space to yourself at such a time.

[firecat]

Thanks, Joe.

Fortunately, I don't feel anyone else is judging me. It's an internal feeling.