Mundanities

[firecat]

I woke up at 7-something AM because there was a lot of wind blowing. Then I jumped out of bed and created new room designs for my study and for the living room. I have also been importing CDs with iTunes.

I am looking forward to spending some time with N tonight. We haven't had relaxing private time in ages because of the unresolved issues between N and OH. Now -- well, I know they don't consider things resolved exactly, but I feel a lot safer.

OH is at Loscon this weekend. I am happy to have time alone. I get lots of tidying stuff done. I shredded two large garbage bags worth of paper last night.

I felt pretty miserable the past few days. I felt hounded. Now, I felt really good a week ago. What changed?

• I didn't go out and do much on my own.
• I didn't get as much sleep.
• PMS.
• ????????

It appears that one symptom of not having enough alone time is not recogizing that I need it and/or not having enough motivation to push aside other things to get it.

Also, it's good for me to get out of the house when I start feeling hounded, but I also lack motivation for that.

So, back to trying to schedule stuff like that in advance.

My rassnfrassn RIM pager stopped working, so I am looking for another wireless email solution. This drives me crazy. I kind of want something that will do paging, phone, and organizing all in one device; but I don't want to spend way more per month than I currently do, and I don't want to take a risk on something that has awful coverage.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I'm finding myself with a sudden, enormous need for alone time, and that's such a change from the way I used to be. And I have *such* a need for it that I'm just *taking* it, whenever I need it, rather than scheduling it in advance. Not fair to the folks I live with, I'm afraid. Maybe some rethinking of this is in order ...

-J

[firecat]

Integrating big changes into existing relationships is so difficult.

It sounds like not only did you change to needing a lot of alone time but you also changed to needing or wanting less scheduling of your life in advance. Maybe scheduling unscheduled time is in order. ;-)

Nice to see you posting again

[chorus-of-chaos.livejournal.com]

""I felt pretty miserable the past few days. I felt hounded. Now, I felt really good a week ago. What changed?

I didn't go out and do much on my own.
I didn't get as much sleep.
PMS.
???????? ""

Might have also been a bi polar swing in there as well. Seems like a lot of us start having the upsiedownies around holiday time.

Re: Nice to see you posting again

[firecat]

My mood disorder is just plain depression.
Yeah, time of year contributes to it.