Staring the beautiful beast in the face

[firecat]

All the things I do have to do with somebody besides myself. When I do things just for me, I find myself sinking into depression and loneliness. That's part of what I am terrified by when I think about making beautiful things, because I imagine it to be a solitary activity for me, at least for some period of time. Maybe I need to re-imagine it as a connecting activity.